CiD'S Diner

suckaaaage.

Tue, 16 Dec 2003 08:36:12 GMT

Jebus chriiiiist, I should update this more often. But I slack on everything, so it's only to be expected, yes?

(all that missing Physics work is dragging my Science grade down, which hurts my soul, damnit, it hurts my soul.)

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/endofworld.html
And Australia's like, 'doubleew tee eff?!'

So, what can I say? I don't get enough sleep. I'm behind in homework. Whenever I open my mouth, I say something stupid and I don't have much in common with, well, anyone anymore.

Ahahaa, wonderful.

So I guess the rest of the month will be dedicated to furthering my Painter skill (what painter skill?) and teaching myself how to use blender (http://www.blender3d.org/ , God bless freeware 3d modelling programs), just like the little geek I am. Now, I wonder how I can get that damned Computer Applications 11 before senior high...

ninjaz.

Fri, 14 Nov 2003 05:27:47 GMT

Paper shuriken are a great way to take your mind off things. I'm not sure why, but I just remembered how to make the buggers on Monday and now I can churn out about 5 a class if I ignore the lecture. Um.
In case you don't know what I mean: http://www.folds.net/menagerie/shuriken_2_piece_credit.html

am I tired?

Mon, 27 Oct 2003 05:22:47 GMT

Yes, I am fucking tired.

Telus [communications company which can't divide their soddin' bandwidth up that great] is being stupid again. I mean, I can't use any search engines. I need to find a picture of a fucking barrel. Thanks a lot, Telus. Now I need to bring a friend to the mall. You know, in order to restrain me when I, uh, fly into rages and try to stab your clerk to death in the cellphone store. Yeah.

Damn bandwidth issues.

Mon, 01 Sep 2003 08:02:32 GMT

Threat rating: extremely low. You may think you can
subvert the government, but if you should try
you will be smited mightily because God likes
us best.

What threat to the Bush administration are you?
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I'm BURNING! IN HELL! AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaah... (hey, isn't that George over there? f___er.)

Kung fu was fun, but you can hear your knees scream afterwards. Apparently it's the most painful thing about wing chun. Wonderful, considering that I have to stand in stance during the entire class, pretty much. Worth it though...I even get general weapon training thrown into this (involving a 3-foot long piece of stick and a blunt knife).

I now have a bigger room (the one which used to be the office...and I'll be getting a new computer soon. Because my old one is about 4 years old and it takes 3 years for a computer to go from top of the line to piece of shit, where graphics are concerned. It made funny ticking noises and liked to pretend that my harddrive didn't exist, but I'll miss that clunker.

...it still smells like paint in here.

tell quincy archer I hate him too.

Fri, 22 Aug 2003 04:16:50 GMT

Why hasn't my course sheet gotten here yet? Those bastards better have gotten me classes, or there will be bloodspilling. I'll kill if they put me into French again, especially since I withdrew from the year before. What if they put me into Spanish? It wouldn't be so bad, but it would be pretty pointless. Damn Mandarin-less schools.

I've got two self-imposed art assignments now: I've got to get a birthday present to EDG and I've got an art contest against this person called...I forgot because the name had numbers in it. Um. Anyways, I've been studying my Bleach archives, and it turns out that Ichigo is a lot harder to draw than I thought. It must be the knit-up eyebrows. Or maybe it's the hair. But anyways, I have no idea how Kubo Taito can draw him so freaking cool-looking. Rukia, however, is really easy once you have her eyes down. Bleeeeargh. Great manga, Bleach. Read it if you can.

Wed, 20 Aug 2003 20:48:57 GMT

I woke up this morning at 10, and the house outside my window had changed from brown to light green. It took me fully 15 seconds to realize that it had been painted. That was really weird. Tammo has gone to camp for...geesus, I forgot to check how long.

Anyways, I've been on vacation. Did nothing but hike, watch TV and drag an inflatable boat back and forth for a week. Well, okay, I got to go boating too (and not on the inflatable one, either) and I got some new clothes. Meh.

Not like anyone cares anyways.

booyah.

Thu, 31 Jul 2003 22:07:14 GMT

Went to a Bif Naked free show yesterday with Tammo/Maitiu...I would have gone to the concert, but it's age-restricted. I was right next to the speaker, so it fuzzified my hearing for the next 5 hours. Go listen to "Rich and Filthy" at top volume, great stuff.

The concert was really close to the comic store, so I spent a lot of time in it before and after Bif. Yeah, Boys Over Flowers is out now! That is seriously the best shoujo story to come out, ever.

Too bad I freaked out at my dad and grandad afterwards. I'm still not too sure what to do about it (also regretting throwing that $10 bill at granddad. I'm mostly worrying about that, coz I'm heartless). Why can't I stay non-moody for more than 8 hours? It's so weird. And I think my dad has an issue involving slamming doors. Ah well.

shocked. quite shocked.

Wed, 23 Jul 2003 03:08:43 GMT

I just found out what Troy Gardezy was doing all this time...I can't believe I didn't find out about it earlier (Tammo, why didn't you tell me?). I knew he was pretty good with sports, but I didn't know he was quite so good at soccer as to end up on the U17 Canadian team and the Dutch Junior National (first Canadian, apparently). Shoot, that bastard used make my life hell in grade 4. The last time I saw him (Grade 7) I shoved the door in his face, and got the usual male reaction to most of my violent behaviour ("What the fuck?! Some girl you are!") He sure is ugly in all of his photos. His nose is all wrong.

I am sick of homeschool. I'm almost finished the second term thing for French, but I'll fail the test at this rate because I know absolutely nothing.

7 people in a house is ridiculous when chores are involved. Even a small chore takes about 3 times as long.

hey, you. you know who you are.

Fri, 18 Jul 2003 06:36:41 GMT

O HEE HEE IM DOIN REEAL GOOD TODAY YEAH!!!!!111111 IM SOOOOOO HAPPY!!!1111 LOLZ!!!1111111

Hey, you. You know, the guy/girl making the sarcastic comments on this lj. Mind fucking off? Just a thought. I had a look through my old lj entries, and have confirmed that I suck. I really do. Yay. See, I agree with you. You can take a break now.

THE FRESHMAKER!

Tue, 15 Jul 2003 00:15:25 GMT

Watch this. I laughed until I nearly passed out, damnit!

Okay, so the English exam is over, but I'm still screwed in the French department. I want to get my hands on the bastards who invented this language. It doesn't work like English and it doesn't work like Chinese, so I'm really stuck. Going to France kind of taught me that it isn't really worth the hype...although it is kinda fun in Paris (the Arc de Triomphe is pretty damn big...it makes the Champs d'Elyses look short)

My computer has screwed itself over royally this week. I got more blue screens during that time than I've ever had in a year. In the end, it decided to destroy the index of my D drive, so my files are still there (thank god, I don't know what I would do if my manga got erased...it took three years to compile that collection) but I CAN'T ACCESS THEM. Some of my programs completely ignore the fact that my computer thinks my stuff doesn't exist, so I can still listen to my music in KazaaLite, thank god. This is a good sign.

Speaking of manga, I landed myself in the narutofanclub RP without really thinking about it, and somehow ended up obsessing over it for a full 3 days. I guess I have a phobia of corniness in all forms, but it's not like I can get rid of it all of the time. Which is why I'm making myself spend a lot of time on my character and my team (but diabloseatery got grounded. urgh.)

Ah well.

FUCK ENGLISH!

Thu, 10 Jul 2003 02:08:32 GMT

It got postponed! AGAIN! Damnit, the road to distance education will be under repair for the next few months, and by the time we got there by a MUCH longer route, it was too late to take the damn test, and I was so sweaty and disoriented that it wouldn't matter anyways (sun, black car, leather seats, 40 minutes, not good). So we went back home.

Where they were installing the windows.

Okay, so I settled down on the laptop for a bit, when suddenly there's this godawful, godawful SCKREEEEEEEEEEEEE sound and the room fills with plaster dust and stuff, and I flee from the room while this guy (with ear protection) cuts through the wall with one of those creepy hand tools with the spinning circular blades, and I pick up the phone and beg for sanctuary from Tammo. I took a shortcut through the woods, which I'm not too familiar with, so I emerged at the approximate site of Queen Alexandra's whatever for the mentally disabled kids and had to go back. The next time, though, I got it right, so we spent the afternoon watching MuchMusic and City Confidential alternately. I don't have TV at my house, so I like to do that sort of thing.

Got a phone call from my mother somewhere around...five forty, maybe...so I went home. Jogged a bit, got all out of breath. I am really, really out of shape, damnit. At least my mother can't accuse me of not exercising today. Blargh.

Yesterday, I asked the narutofanclub@deviantart people if I could move into the empty spot in the Sound clan, and they've already moved me now. Aaaah well.

doom.

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 06:43:23 GMT

Okay, I've got the English exam, tommorow at 10. I f~~ucking~~ hate English exams. Goddamnit. The people there love my writing, but I've probably got the most provocative writing style in the grade, andI have a tendancy to add an occasional 'goddamn' in my creative writing work. Blargh. I'm just hoping that I can wake up in time.

Also, we are having our windows replaced tommorow. Yay. So that means that I'll have to stay away from...god, EVERYWHERE for a bit. I'll nip over to Tammo's for a bit, I guess.

Kuchiki Rukia's current status in my mind as the coolest female character in comics might have to be shared with He Young (from The way this boy lives, a Korean manhwa). She's the sharpest, coolest girl I've ever seen in a girl's comic (Bleach is in Shonen Jump, after all), and she actually takes charge of her love life, for god sakes. Plus, she dresses really cool as well (in my opinion, anyways). I might borrow her hairstyle for something.

crap. crapcrapcrap...

Sat, 05 Jul 2003 01:42:22 GMT

Yay for the rant. I haven't done this for a while.

I've basically hit a dead end with my own work. Nothing good is coming of my own ideas, I draw the same thing over and over, and it generally all comes out mediocre at best. Yeah. Rejoice.

No one tells me anything in this house anymore. I'm going camping tommorow and I didn't even know until yesterday. God, that's sad. And I have to be up at 8. I don't have a job or anything right now, so I usually fall asleep at 3 and drag myself up at 10-12.

Shit.

So it's early July, and I haven't had my English exam yet. Nor have I handed anything in for French past the first section of the second module (out of four). I am so screwed.

I guess I have until mid-August to finish my French, so I'll have to work like crazy and hope to God that I still have time to save my sorry ass. Thank god that I will never take French again. People only take French to pass their university exams, for god sakes...only the Spanish students are even remotely interested in their language class. I'm taking MANDARIN as an EXTRACURRICULAR already.

And I'm much, much better at it than French, because 1) my grandparents know maybe 30-60 English words and 2) I've been speaking it since I was 3. Even if I read and write like a third grader. Well, yeah, I just finished the 5th textbook or something, so I guess that's expected...now to get to grade 5-6 level in 3 years.

I repeat. I am so screwed.

maybe if I close my eyes it'll go away or something. or if I torch it.

Thu, 26 Jun 2003 07:55:25 GMT

Wow, I haven't been updating at all. Awfully stupid of me, especially with such an 'angsty' post at the top. Damnit, I wasn't being angsty, I was being annoyed. There's a difference there, man.

Yeah, I did read HP#5. J.K. Rowling's getting better now...

Fuck you all.

Sat, 14 Jun 2003 03:20:34 GMT

I am really, really pissed today.

Went around the house searching for something to kill. Ended up throwing the watering pail off of the balcony into the backyard. Not too destructive, but enough to garner an interesting reaction from my dad and my sister.

I don't know what it is, but I'm pretty sure it's because I hate that time of the month. I hate it to hell.

Maybe I'll rip the head off of one of the stuffed animals. I will never understand people who give them names and stuff...it's just nutso.

Bastards, bastards, bastards...

OH. MY. GOD.

Sat, 07 Jun 2003 04:23:22 GMT

The Animatrix is pure, pure schweetness. I'm going to cry for a bit. Animation of this calibur is somewhat discouraging. Hooo.

I know I haven't posted anything for ages...nothing I draw turns out right, dangit.

Schweetness.

oohyeah!

Thu, 05 Jun 2003 06:20:16 GMT

Okay, I now own the AniMatrix DVD! Booyeah! My mother's confiscated it until Friday in my best friend's interests (maitiu hates spoilers and I don't see what's wrong with them...I guess it's just me)

This is great soundtrack if you like trance. It's fine with me.

XD weeeeee!

15. Bummer.

Mon, 02 Jun 2003 06:57:45 GMT

I turned 15 today at 4 in the afternoon, and I have to say that there are probably no perks to this year. Sure, I graduate from junior high, but I can't drink, I can't drive, and I can't live outside of my home. Not like I want to do any of those yet (excluding learning how to drive...damnit).

So goddamn annoying.

Yay. Make that yesterday, it's past 12.

(I burnt the top of my mouth with pizza sauce today, and now I'm bleeding...)

boooyah!

Thu, 29 May 2003 07:33:53 GMT

I finally figured out how to prevent my widescreen dvds from screwing up on my TV. Damnit, that AD-500 remote control is hard to understand. I found the answer on a page that tells you how to eliminate region problems. Something like: "Setup button? But I tried that alrea--oh shiiiiiit, when the DVD is out of the player?"

Yeah. It was easy after that.

So now I won't have any trouble viewing the Animatrix. Whoo!

Yeeeesh. I'm going to Cedar Hellhole to choose my courses for next year, so I have to make sure I don't get up at 11 in the morning like I do practically every day now (I drop off at about 3 in the morning. I have problems). I do need the exercise, too...I guess I'll hang out at the library and pop in to visit the gang at lunch break in Rowland's room (they're always there, to watch the movie...I wonder what it is this time).

I think I'm somewhat obsessive. Most manga I read a few times in a session, but I read the new Bleach chapter and seriously...I'm messed.

KON: Wha...what are you doing, you...*smack* jerk!
ICHIGO: Wha...you're filthy, so I'm beating the dirt out of ya, ain't I?
KON: Don't be so matter-of-fact about this! IF you wanted to clean me, there's a million and one other ways to do it!
KON: You don't really have to-
KON: Beat me, do y---*smack* OOF!
KON: You...bastard...listen to what I'm...saying...SAVE ME!
RUKIA: Put him down, Ichigo! I've brought something to clean him with!
KON: T...That's my sister!! You gave some thought to little ol' me...
RUKIA: *holds up toilet brush*
ICHIGO AND KON: WHAAAAAT?!
KON: AAAAAH! AAAAAAAGH! AAAAAAAAAUGH!
ICHIGO: Wait, wait, wait, wait!
RUKIA: What?
ICHIGO: That's the toilet brush from school, isn't it?! Where did you get that?
RUKIA: From school.
ICHIGO: TAKE IT BACK!

I love Bleach.

Some people are really nuts, though. Like this person. Now go and annoy them, all right? Good.

I hate parrots.

bowling is evil?

Wed, 28 May 2003 07:26:42 GMT

Just went to watch Bowling for Columbine at the university cinema. I've seen some of Michael Moore's stuff and read his latest book, so this was pretty interesting from the very beginning. Very good documentery, deserves the Oscar.

I am really out of shape, and my mother says I'm getting fat. Of course, this is because I hardly go outside nowadays and I don't exercise anymore. I used to walk 2 km from school to home, but I'm not going anymore, and it's not like I can get any recreation with my friends, either (my best friend has PE this term and is usually pooped afterwards). I mean, where am I supposed to go? I guess I could go to the library to study or something, drop in on my friends during lunch break and walk back home (4 km).

Hmph. I'll go over to the university bookstore and read or something.

needles

Mon, 26 May 2003 03:58:21 GMT

All right, I had needles stuck into my legs today. Yeah, my acupuncturist uncle. Luckily, they weren't too deep, so they just hurt a bit at the ankle (not very much padding there, ne?)

My knee hurts now, though.

People who stoicly insist that anime is not cartoon are, for gods sakes, just hiding their heads in the sand. Why the hell not? Is it because you don't want to admit that you watch cartoons? It's just the same word in *dundundun* JAPANESE. It's just a larger industry in Japan with a wider variety of genres and age focuses because of a larger demand. Get over it, guys, because you people watch cartoons, even if they're not in English. It's nothing to be ashamed of.

squlerch

Sun, 18 May 2003 07:35:06 GMT

http://host.deluxnetwork.com/~bleep/epitaph/deliverer.jpg (copy and paste)

Urrrrrgh. 6 straight hours CGing can seriously ruin your brain. I don't want to know what it would do if it wasn't held together by my skull.

(Yeah, it's Jed. Again. Because he's such a great character to work with. I mean, we all have our personal scapegoats. Not to mention that I love red hair.)

About the work...the robe and shepherd's staff is a reference to the biblical Moses, since a person that Jed looks up to during the story is Harriet Tubman, one of the most famous 'conductors' on the 'Underground Railroad', which was a system that helped black slaves journey North to freedom. She was so successful in this that she was codenamed 'Moses'.

I also kind of wanted to see how Jed looked in a robe...

Seattley...

Mon, 12 May 2003 06:15:54 GMT

I didn't know I owned a diner. I really didn't. That's from Zombie Powder. Kubo Taito, my idol.

I just came back from Seattle and Vancouver today, folks...they have really nice universities in the states. University of Washington was especially nice, man.

Since the time we left the city, I've been especially mean to my sister. I don't know. She irritates me at times. I guess I feel bad afterwards, but sometimes it's difficult to stop getting angry.

There was a guy who was feeding seagulls on the ferry on the way there. He didn't know how to tell the genders apart, actually, which was pretty funny, but it was sweet anyways. One of his friends was just hanging around and telling him that he was going to lose a finger if he kept on doing that. I don't really like seagulls though. Their bladder control is just awful.

Apparently my folks have a lot of connections with people who are now in the professional world, so I got to meet an art professor (specializing in Chinese art, funkeh!), which is surprising, because it doesn't have a lot to do with math, does it? Chinese calligraphy is just crazy...requires a lot of practice. My dad and my dad's side grandma are fairly good at it (my grandma moreso than my dad).

My father's grandma is the best artist in the family. I want to talk to her now, but at the moment she is in China, making sure that my cousin Owen is working hard at those university entrance exams. She's the only person he'll listen to, anyways.

She's the only one in the family who can actually critique my art.

I don't click after my posts anymore. I don't know.

CGing for Reis

Fri, 09 May 2003 06:08:38 GMT

this is a redesign of Locke (FFVI) by Reis. it ain't done yet. I'm CGing it for practice.
http://host.deluxnetwork.com/~bleep/epitaph/reis-locke-04.JPG (copy and paste)
these things turn out, but they give you migraines.

I'm not really happy.

Sun, 04 May 2003 22:54:25 GMT

I am really screwed over today.

Number one, someone I used to talk to a lot pretty much cut all connections a while ago, so I got some info and talked to her for a bit. I don't know why, I didn't even ask her about the cut connections. But it's probably because I'm so damned lonely at home nowadays, and I feel like I'm losing friends off the net as well as on...my temper has gone up, I don't exercise, I can't even speak proper English anymore. Even close friends seem to have forgotten that I'm still here.

I am such a freak.

I've gone back to Chinese lessons, because I'm allowed to do that, and it's like everyone looks right through me. Maybe being in France has made me somewhat invisible or something.

Something has to happen soon. Something has to happen.